Random Thoughts

Don't fall for this one, don't you dare fall for this one. I have to remind myself of this every time I look into J's eyes. I feel like a silly high school student again because I should feel so strongly for someone I have known for so little of a time. I wonder if I am so attracted to him because I know that he is leaving in several weeks. It seems like I have jumped from one turbulent sea that I at least knew how to navigate to a vast calm ocean that I have no idea how to cross. I have no idea what is better. Right now, I have everything to be thankful for for my relationship with J. He is attentive, intelligent and so giving of himself. What I find amazing is that he truly wants to be with me. Every day we look into each other's eyes and get close to each other and are thankful for every minute and now I am unsure what will happen at the end of the summer. What was supposed to be just a fun relationship has turned into something serious. Goodness, I need to be careful and stop rambling.